on receiving

it is a curious practice, to shift your life from one of reaching out to receiving.

after what has felt like running a twenty year gauntlet, I have had to learn how to make the changes for my own health.

and it’s not fun at first. the first thing you know about receiving rather than doing or making is you have to get really clear at what you want and then maintain a clear path, emotionally and energetically by inner-work and self-care.

it is what creates a lot of abundance.
if you imagine your health as wealth, (and this is nothing new- spoon theory is well-known in circles of chronic illness) then you know that you only have a finite amount of health for anything. a healthy body is a body functioning highly.

receiving and asking others to do on your behalf is not the same. it looks similar but it requires, usually, convincing or bribing at some point, or threatening…

so if every action in your life cost you health points, and your health is wealth, you remain healthiest and happiest from remaining in yourself.

this is a reminder for those still trying to force me to chase and grind that it’s not for me, and the reason I have this little page on the web is because if you want to work with me this is it – everything you need to get that ball rolling. I don’t spend my health on prospecting, converting or cold-calling.
and you wouldn’t want me to. In this practice the best way is the easy way, or the path of least resistance and that means what feels easy in my body……..what feels aligned, and comfortable and true…

this is what makes yoga such a challenging practice and to find true alignment you must spend years reflecting internally to create a map you can follow with clairvoyance and sureity.

I began to loop back on myself, in a way I hadn’t done.

revisiting awakenings to deepen, and I guess it’s because I am approaching ten years into this work.

I regret sometimes deleting the mess of my process when I remove content because some of you think I am removing you, but it’s not true. I hide my vulnerability like anyone would.

but this process, unfolding, re-tracing and ever deepening is one that is a lifelong commitment. it is a marriage without divorce and actually, death does not part you from the practice, you continue on into another form…

I think what I am trying to say is: when I am ready to work, work will find me and not the other way around. I am working on creating content, and refining offerings into a consistent and cohesive package and using the time I have in ill health, and even under great pressure to determine what is most useful.
that’s not to say I don’t have something incredible to offer you just yet, but until you’re able to meet me head on it’s not going to work.

so…see you later?

love,

jaz