I just got really ahead of myself sort of like creating opportunities for future offerings and hit publish fully in the mindset of I am ready for this. sorry if I got your hopes up but I’m not ready to lead a yoga training for maybe ten years so if you caught my page there I was sleeping a bit and daydreaming my future self….um see you there?

it’s been placed in the pending review queue

it has passed me by. a milestone. you know I’ve been a “yoga teacher” now for over seven years. while I’m not currently teaching classes, I have been a professional student as well for this time and that means that all the cells in the soft and fleshy parts of my body have been bathed in the soup of my teaching journey. it has reached heights and depths that I didn’t actually know existed before, or if I felt them I had no capacity to hold them without losing my mind.

it makes me laugh to think of the people in my life (many of who I no longer speak to) who gossiped and projected and predicted this would just be a phase. I can remember my disappointment in realising that after my commitment to travelling on what was a small spiritual pilgrimage to be professionally trained nobody accepted this was “the new” me and I just let go. and even as my heart broke for the loss of people I once held dear I felt myself grow stronger and for once I felt like I had a sense of self that wasn’t fulfilling a role or a fantasy or an expectation from anyone other than myself.

because that’s what yoga is, actually, it is the path to spiritual liberation. along the way I realised I needed more information for emotional freedom too, and I found that in somatics, and I found even a style of yoga that brought those together. and I sat and I practiced every single day and I shared what I had learned in public classes.

those classes were vulnerable, a sort of tentative outreach to share what was in my heart that was not met, because I hadn’t fully taken my seat.

and I still haven’t, because actually the bones take a full decade to renew themselves and by the end of 2027 my first transformation will be complete and every cell will understand just how incredible this journey could be.

you’re welcome to join me before then, in a one-to-one or small group capacity but I don’t think there’s any need for me to go fully public with this until we are in the tenth year of a “professional” teachers’ practice.

I want to give you the best, and honestly you don’t need me to practice with people because I already know how to lead a room.

one day we will meet and share in this truth, the one that sings in our cells and be with each other in that.

it’s what I practice for and what I live for and why I have persevered for this long

I’m not here to run “human” trials, I am my own experiment and I want to share with you the best of me

I love you